Thursday, February 12, 2015

Can I go hide now?

Nothing of significants happened financially today.

Haven't received payment confirmation from my side job.

Haven't received any notification from the IRS in regards to the $2700 they owe ME from 2013.

Haven't heard anything about the subsidy increase for DS2, but I have a gut feeling that is going to be denied.

If we don't get the side job payment by Saturday DW is going to have the get a small payday loan to tied us over until payday on the 20th. I am having a hard time dealing with that but I don't know what else to do.

On a completely non-financial related note I am really frustrated with DD1. She got herself into a bind of her own making and wants our help. We aren't able to help as we logistically can not make it work with work, appointments and prior commitments in regards to our other 5 children. On Monday I explained in great detail why we couldn't make it work and told her she needed to find an alternative option. 

When I reiterated our inability to help again today, she turned to DW and started lying that I had promised her I would help.  DW and I always verify with each other anything DD1 says so when her lie didn't work she for pissed.  Now DD1 is on a rampage and is telling everyone how mad about how I had lied to her and how I making things harder on her. 

I try to not to let this stuff get to me.  My oldest daughter suffered a lot of trauma before she came to live with us at 13.   Per the State she is an adult at 18 and we literally got not stop her from the making the unsafe choices she is prone to. When the those choices started putting the other kids in our home at imminent risk we had to ask her to leave. Since she doesn't seem to have the ability to take personal responsibility for anything, DW and I have become to scapegoat.

It is depressing and it hurts but what can you do?

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